I miss You

Hey ! I know we haven't seen each other, or even talked, in a long time. .but i've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and i want u to know that I miss u !Not like "i regret what happened" or even "i want to see u again". Just,"I miss u".  Full stop ! It's strange to think that someone i used to know so well is now a total stranger. That i sometimes go entire days without thinking of u even a little.Most of the time. I let myself forget, because it's easier. But then i find something. .An old message and ur picture still save in my phone.And the full weight of what's been lost comes crashing down on me.But this isn't regret. We have reason for ending it, and they're as valid as ever. But back at the start, we didn't need reason for anything. It all just happen. We didn't have common interest, or similar goals. We didn't even really get along that well.But we didn't need a reason to fall in love. We just did.The reasons came at the end, and everything that's happened since has been all about reasons.And that's good. It means  one day i might find someone i won't have to say goodbye too.But a small part of me hopes that u still remember what it was like before all the reasons.. . .and that u miss me too  . . .

:: Between US ::

L O V E
At first, I never really thought about love. All I wanted was a boyfriend, or a relationship. 
As I got older, I came to realize what love really is. 
When I’m with all these other guys I never felt as if I can love them. 
One or two boys I thought I loved. 
More as if I was in love with their words when they spoke to me saying sweet things. 
The realization came to me and they weren’t the right people for me. 

Once I met HIM, again I wasn’t thinking too much about love.
I knew I liked this boy, but not love. 
I didn’t know if this relationship would even last between us. 
But, it wasn’t just the words he spoke to me. 
It was the laughs we shared, tears and bittersweet things we've been through, the memories, and smiles that made me fall in love with him. 

I never really got that warm fuzzy feeling in my heart before i meet him, and I knew that I loved him, and he loved me. That's all. 

W H Y ??

You hide behind your feelings

and keep the truth locked away,

but there is so much said

in the things you don’t say

You innocently, tell me

our time has come and gone

and that we can’t go back

but I don’t believe it

and this time you’re wrong

The distance you put between us

is nothing more than time lost

a place for your feelings to hide,

yet I can hear the love in your voice

each time we talk

My patience has no end

when it comes to loving you

and I will wait a lifetime

for you to see the truth

Real love doesn’t go away

it doesn’t fade into the past,

it goes on forever

and always finds its way back

I will wait a lifetime for you

because you are my soul,

and behind all of your doubt

I know you can’t let go

You are my soul,

and I am yours, too.

If two people were ever meant to be,

it’s me and you. .

These Butterflies

I still remember the first time you looked at me. I was confused and I had never expected that we’d become this close.You gave me these butterflies when you smiled. I couldn’t help but to smile back.It was a smile that was rarely on my face. It was only because of you.You called me beautiful, held my hand and locked our fingers together.You gave me these butterflies when you looked at me. I couldn’t help but to blush and look down.This feeling of happiness mixed with confusion as my insecurities go crumbling down.It only happens when I’m with you.Every time you say “I love you”, these butterflies that you give me become wild.You’re the reason I can feel this. It’s a beautiful sensation.It’s all just with you. ♥

Long Distance Relationship

He asks me to close my eyes, to keep the volume on medium and to just listen to him.
I do as he says and stay silent.I hear his breath, I know he’s smiling. I just know.

“I love you.”

He says with a bigger smile. I don’t have to look at him to know. I can tell from his sound and sweet soft laugh.

“It’s because I’m blushing isn’t it?”

“Your cheeks are always so red.”

“So?”

“I wanna kiss them.”

“Come here and kiss them.”

And suddenly I’m showered with kissing sounds all around me.His laugh goes louder.I know I’m probably as red as a tomato but I don’t care.

More silence.At that moment I couldn’t tell what was happening so I just opened my eyes again.He was there sitting right in front of his screen staring at me in a way no one has ever looked before.My heart raced fast. I knew my face was getting even redder if it is possible.

“I really do love you.” 

He whispered.Those moments always just manage to make me tear up.

:: Relationship ::

Sometimes people don’t understand how difficult it is to maintain a relationship for a long amount of time. it gets so hard, that there are moments where even i question how we’ve been able to keep it going for as long as we have. most days are great, but then there are days that get really bad and difficult. there are nights that i cry so much that i feel like a completely different person, fights that you can’t even imagine. we struggle through certain days, but we’ve managed to stay strong despite all of that. we’re so far from perfect and i’m not afraid to admit that, because it’s real and this is what happens. you fight, you cry, etc. it’s challenging, and it’s something you’ve got to prepare for when you fall in love. relationships aren’t easy, but they’re so rewarding when you do find someone, that even if you fight, they’re always going to fight for you too. if they’re the right person, they won’t give up on you, no matter how rough things get. .

:: Kasih Sayang ::

Pada suatu pagi di satu sekolah menengah, ada seorang pelajar bertanya pada seorang guru yang sedang mengajar. Ketika itu, guru tersebut sedang menyentuh mengenai kasih dan sayang secara am. .

Dialog di antara pelajar dan guru tersebut berbunyi begini:- 

Pelajar :

Cikgu, macam mana kita nak pilih seseorang yang terbaik sebagai orang paling kita sayang? Macam mana juga kasih sayang itu nak berkekalan?

Cikgu : 

Oh, awak nak tahu ke?.Emmm...baik­lah,sekarang kamu buat apa yang saya suruh. Ikut je ye...mungkin kamu akan dapat apa jawapannya.

Pelajar : 

Baiklah. . apa yang harus saya buat ?

Cikgu : 

Kamu pergi ke padang sekolah yang berada di luar kelas

sekarang juga. Kamu berjalan di atas rumput di situ dan sambil memandang rumput di depan kamu, pilih mana yang PALING cantik

tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi walaupun sekali. Dan kamu petiklah rumput yang PALING cantik yang berada di depan kamu tersebut dan selepas itu bawa balik ke kelas. 

Pelajar : 

Ok. Saya pergi sekarang dan buat apa yang cikgu suruh. 

Apabila pelajar tersebut balik semula ke kelas, tiada pun rumput yang berada di tangannya. Maka cikgu pun bertanya kepada pelajar tersebut. 

Cikgu : 

Mana rumput yang cikgu suruh petik? 

Pelajar : 

Oh, tadi saya berjalan di atas rumput dan sambil memandang rumput yang berada di situ, saya carilah rumput yang paling cantik. Memang ada banyak yang cantik tapi cikgu kata petik yang paling cantik maka saya pun terus berjalan ke depan sambil mencari yang paling cantik tanpa menoleh ke belakang lagi. Tapi sampai di penghujung padang , saya tak jumpa pun yang paling cantik. Mungkin ada di antara yang di belakang saya sebelum itu tapi dah cikgu cakap tak boleh menoleh ke belakang semula, jadi tiadalah rumput yang saya boleh petik. 

Cikgu : 

Ya, itulah jawapannya. Maknanya, apabila kita telah berjumpa dengan seseorang yang kita sayang, janganlah kita hendak mencari lagi yang lebih baik daripada itu. Kita patut hargai orang yang berada di depan kita sebaik-baiknya.­ Janganlah kita menoleh ke belakang lagi kerana yang berlaku tetap dah berlaku. Dan semoga yang berlalu tidak lagi berulang. Jika kita berselisih faham dengan orang yang kita sayang itu, kita

boleh perbetulkan keadaan dan cuba teruskan perhubungan tersebut walaupun banyak perkara yang menggugat perhubungan tersebut. Dan

ingatlah orang yang kita sayang itulah kita jumpa paling cantik dan paling baik pada MULAnya walaupun nak ikutkan banyak lagi yang cantik dan baik seperti rumput tadi.

Maka,
sayangilah orang yang berada di depan kita dengan tulus dan ikhlas..

Yang Lalu Biarlah Berlalu

Waktu pun terhenti,

 hatiku mencari

Mataku terpukau pada satu tatapan

Membeku langkahku,

 tergetar hatiku

Terperangkap aku dalam keindahanmu

Kau dekati aku, 

kau sentuh tubuhku

Kau buat diriku, 

terhanyut dalam peluk mu

Sejenak ku sadar, kau bukan cintaku

Lepas pelukanmu dariku, 

buang jauh perasaanmu

Semua tentang kita ingin aku lupakan

Yang lalu biarlah berlalu,

 jangan lagi ini terjadi

Biarlah kita jalani 
cinta di jalan yg berbeda

Yang telah terjadi, 

sudahlah lupakan

Jika terus kau kenang,

 hanya membuat luka di hati

Sadarilah aku bukan cintamu

Sadarilah aku bukan milikmu

Yang lalu biarlah berlalu,

 jangan lagi ini terjadi

Karena ini hanya kan semakin menghancurkan

Semakin menyakitkan,

 semakin mematahkan hatimu

:: it's all about him ::

I realize. .

Unconditional love

it's not about having him beside me 24/7

because he’s always on my mind. .

it's not about where I am

it’s about who I am with. . 

it’s not about how we live the day

it’s about with whom u’re living it with. .

it’s not about what u have in life

it’s about who u’re sharing it with. .

his happiness comes first before yours

his smile is all you need to kick off the day

his hug is your sanctuary

his kiss is your morphine

his thoughts is your coffee

his laugh is your weeds

unconditional love..

It’s all about him :) .

~~> I've learned that we don't have to change friends,If we understand that friends change.

~~> I've learned that something that you do in an instant, can give you heartache for life.

~~> I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be that last time you see them.

~~> I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

~~> I've learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you.

~~> I've learned that my best friend and I , can do anything or nothing and still have a good time.

~~> I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the one who helps you get up.

~~> I've learned that sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

~~> I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them too, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

~~> I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

~~> I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

~~> I've learned that just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

~~> I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secrect, it may change your life forever.

~~> I've learned that sometimes the people that you love most in life, are taken from you too soon.

~~> I've learned that you can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to them.

~~> I've learned that no matter how much i care, some people just dont care back.

~~> I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.

~~> I've learned that it's not what you have in life, but who you have that counts.

~~> I've learned that you can keep going, long after you.