Don't need your regret

You've noticed a changed huh? She never calls you anymore. She hardly texts you; when she does text you she doesn't say sweet things like she used to. She takes her time to reply. When you start an argument you can tell she doesn't really give a fuck. She makes you feel pathetic. Other guys are starting to text her and she replies to them. You realize she's starting to move on; talking to other guys; going on dates. And now you're starting to realize how beautiful she is. She's amazing isn't she? Well too fucking bad cause you lost her. You were once her world; her everything. She really wanted you but you pushed her aside. you failed to realize she wasn't afraid to walk away. She was strong enough to let go. And now you suddenly love her? Do you even know how much pain you caused her? A fucking ton. She didn't come around with your "I miss you" bullshit. She's gone. She's simply over you. . .

Her eyes don't light up when she hears your name anymore. She doesn't get chills when you walk by and her heart doesn't race when you smile at her. You don't get to her like you used to. You're just a bad memory in the back of her mind. So don't be suprised next time you make your way past her and she doesn't even glance your way. And don't bother trying to talk to her, you wont get a response. She's over fighting the same losing battle. The saddest part is that you have no one to blame but yourself. She gave you ever chance you could ask for. And you fucked up every time. Now she walks around with nothing but smile on her face, and she laughs louder then ever before. Looks like you've lost her bro . . .

::::: U S :::::

We fight all the time, 

the arguments we had are too much to handle. 

I hate your guts and you hate my attitude. 

We're both too stubborn and hot-tempered to step down and just apologize. 

I wouldn't give in no matter what. 

Those were the hard times. 

But if we put aside those ugly moments, 

it's just you and me. 

You, who is my pillar of support that always stand by me. 

And me, who is your everything, your one and only. 

Knowing that, we'd say 'I love you' even after all the hurt and pain we go through, 

because by the end of the day, 

thats what its all about. 

So don't mind the small arguments, 

and don't let the big fights jeopardize your relationship. 

Cherish the people that you argue a lot with, 

'cause you just might miss those bickering days when you least expect it.

SiCK of CRYiN

That sharp pain in your chest that comes when you walk pass someone you thought you knew. 

After all the things you guys went through together, 

it’s gone just like that. 

You trusted and loved them. 

After all the venting, crying, laughing, texting, 

good & bad times you guys shared, 

it ended up with all the other things you had. 

You can’t bear to see them with someone else after your relationship has ended. 

Even though you are no longer together, 

because you cared, because you loved, 

you know that it will crush you to see them smiling with someone else. 

To walk by someone that was once a huge part of your life can feel like you’ve reached your limits.

You feel brought down or even half dead for the rest of the day, 

but know that you gotta have your head held high. 

You don’t want them to see how much pain you are in on the inside because that shows them that you need them. 

And honestly, you don’t. 

You are your own person and you can be independent if you choose to. 

Show them that you’ll be fine. 

If he's the right guy, he won't leave. 

So don’t sink down to the bottom because you’re strong. 

You’ll get through this, 

it just takes time. . .

:: WAHAi DiRi ::

Wahai diri . . . 

Jika memang kau mencintainya kerana Allah, Cintailah dia dengan cara yang benar. .Cintailah dia pada saat yang tepat. .

Ya Robbii . . .

Aku tak akan memaksakan diri hanya untuk sebuah perasaan, Jika dia memang jiwa yang telah Kau pilihkan untukku, berikanlah kami jalan dan petunjuk. .Jika dia memang takdir bagiku, pantaskanlah dia untukku dan pantaskanlah diriku untuknya. 

Ya Robbii . . .

Aku memilihnya kerana sebuah keyakinan. . Aku terima seluruh kelebihan dan kekurangannya. . Aku terima seluruh luka dan bahagia yang menyertai hidupnya. . Aku terima dirinya dengan seluruh apa yang telah Engkau berikan untuknya. . 

 Ya Robbii . . .

Jika ada dua pilihan dan diantaranya adalah dia, tentu aku akan memilihnya. Jika ada sepuluh pilihan dan diantaranya adalah dia, tentu aku akan memilihnya. Jika ada seratus pilihan dan diantaranya adalah dia, tentu aku akan memilihnya. Dan jika hanya ada satu pilihan, dan tidak ada dia dalam pilihan itu. . Maka aku pun akan menerimanya sebagai pemberian terbaik dari Mu. . Aku tidak akan memaksakan diriku untuk memilihnya. . Kerana Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui. . Kerana Engkaulah yang Menciptakanku. . Kerana Engkaulah yang Memelihara diriku. . 

Ya Robbii . . .

Jika dengan menutup cinta ini yang menjadikan Mu Redha kepadaku. . Jika dengan mengorbankan perasaan ini Engkau menyelamatkanku. . Di saat manusia tergelincir dari jalan Mu. . Maka aku serahkan cinta ini untuk Mu. . Sebagai wujud bakti ku pada Mu .. Sebagai wujud syukurku pad Mu. .
  

Ya Muqollibal Qulub, Tsabbit Qolbi ‘ala Diinika . . 

Aku yakin bahwa tidak ada Ketetapan Mu yang salah. . Aku yakin bahwa semua Kehendak Mu sangat terukur. . Buatlah aku mencintai pilihan yang Kau berikan. . Buatlah aku setia pada pilihan yang Kau berikan. . Buatlah aku menyayangi pada pilihan yang Kau amanahkan. . 

Ya Robbii . . . 

Dengan segala Kekuasaan Mu. . Dengan segala Kekuatan Mu. . Dengan segala Keagungan Mu. . Hamba mohon pada Mu, Kuatkanlah hati ini saat ketetapan Mu membuat hati ini terasa sempit. . Tenangkanlah hati ini saat ketetapan Mu membuat hati ini terasa berat. . Sesungguhnya hanya dengan Pertolongan Mu, diri ini bisa menjalani semua ketentuan Mu. .

Ya Robbii . . .

 buatlah diriku mencintai Mu lebih dari segala makhluk yang telah Engkau Ciptakan. . buatlah diriku mencintai Rosulullah, kerana Engkau pun mencintainya(Rosulullah). Inilah isi hatiku, inilah harapanku, inilah keyakinanku. . Aku tidak hanya mencintaimu. . Tapi aku ingin mencintaimu kerana Allah. . Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan cara yang benar. . Aku ingin Allah Redha dengan cinta ini. .  

Tak usah khuatir jika engkau adalah Qudrah dan Irodah Nya. .

 Kerana semuanya pasti akan terwujud, hanya waktu yang akan menjadi saksi kekuasaan Nya. . Tak usah memaksakan jika kau memang bukan untuk diriku. . Kerana pasti aku bukan yang TERBAIK untukmu. . Sehebat apapun cinta ini. . Tidak akan pernah bisa menyelamatkan kita, Saat matahari hanya satu hasta di atas ubun2 kita. .

Kerana yang terbaik adalah . . .

Kita menjaga perasaan dan keyakinan ini dengan sebersih-bersih ketauhidan. .Kita diwafatkan bersama hamba hamba yang berbakti. .Hamba-hamba yang mengorbankan sesuatu yang paling dicintainya untuk Tuhannya. . Semoga Allah mempertemukan kita kembali disatu tempat, Dimana para abid melihat Robbiinya dengan penuh keredhaan dan kebahagiaan. . Kulakukan semua ini kerana 

"aku mencintaimu kerana Allah. ." 

Aamiin . . .

i'm still loving u

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through
Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete

But now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you

I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

DAY & NiGHT

I love u even it breaks my heart

Through ur eyes are on someone else

Like a puppet , like a sad doll

I would always be waiting for u

Just as day and night come

Love comes to me

In this dream, the end of a lonely day

I see u, I meet u

It flies far away, Driven away by the wind

I just cant catch this love, and its sad

It breaks my heart and disappears into bubles

In a deathly agony, Im so lonely

A sad flower with the thorns of a rose

In my broken heart

Im alone even when i cry

Even when im hurt

I long for love, and its breaks my heart

When the winds blows

Im missing u again

When it rains my tears rains too

I feel lonely even if im staring at u

Im afraid even if ure by my side

U might come and soon disappear

Like the sun at day

And the star at nigth

Ure by someone else's side

And i miss u so much tonight

The time we have loved together

24hours of day and night

Is not enough for me

Tonight i miss u as much i love u

Im lost, im wondering now

Cast ur light on me

And lead my way

Im tormented without u

Im lonely without u

::: L i F E :::

You cannot stay in a bubble for fear of being hurt. 

Hurt is part of life. 

Everytime you do get hurt it will make you so much stronger. 

If you never get hurt you would only be setting yourself up.

you would not be able to handle a break up

if you never experienced the feeling of be hurt. 

Love is like learning to walk, 

or life itself. 

There are stumbles and falls, 

but every love is a new joy. 

The bruises aren't fatal unless we allow them to be. 

With luck and reflection we learn from them and do better next time. 

Fear only deprives us of the joy of life. 

So embrace life, 

and love which is the best of it. 

Adventure is never a consistently comfortable experience. 

That's life. ♥