::: H E A R T B R E A K :::

Everyone at some point in their life is going to experience it. 

And, u know what ? 

it's probably one of the most painful things a person has to go through. 

I'm not going to lie ! 

When u get ur heart broken, 

it feels like it shattered into a million pieces. 

It's like that person u were head over heels for stomped mercilessly on ur heart. 

It feels like ur heart is being shredded to pieces, 

cut up, 

and thrown in the trash, 

left to rot. 

It hurts a lot, 

emotionally and physically. 

Getting heart broken actually makes ur heart physically hurt. 

U cry and cry and wish it wasn't like this. 

U wish it was just a temporary nightmare.

But, the sad truth ? 

It's not ! 

It's reality ! 

And u're going to just have to accept it, the pain and all. .

The truth is. . .

I tell myself the things that I really need to hear at a time like this. .

"You're gone because it's the best for both of us. You weren't happy, and now you've gone to find someone that can make you happy. Which is good, because that's what I want. you need to be happy and it makes me happy knowing you are happy. I tell myself we weren't right for each other and there's one right person out there for me, and it wasn't you, so that's why we didn't last. I tell myself that I won't look back on our relationship with regret, because I believe in the saying that it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all."

But I'm just lying to myself.

No one will ever love you the same way I did. Being apart isn't good for either of us. You used to be happy, and I believe we could go back to the time we were happy, if we could just work through it. I believe with all my heart we were right for each other... and I will always live with that regret allowing you to walk out of my life instead of just giving up after countless times of you throwing me back to the ground after I dropped my pride time after time. I wish I could say that I never did love you because it would be easier. then I wouldn't have to deal with crushing heartache. I wish I could truly believe that saying either way; I don't believe it was better to have loved and lost, but the time I spent loving you was the greatest time of my life.

I don't know if telling myself these lies are helping or not. It's not working to force myself to believe it, because with every statement I tell myself, the pain worsens to know it's not true and yet I continue to go in this continuous cycle, happy to stay in it because the only thing I can think of is that you loved me enough to pull me out of it. This is the only lie I have told myself that I have chosen to believe. I think that's why it hurts the most. .

Although I tell myself many lies to try to get over you, here's the truth:

"I will always love you and that's all I'm really certain of anymore."

iF onLy u know . . . .

I didn’t plan on FALLiNG iN LOVE with you, 

 and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. .

But once we met, 

 it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. .

We fell in love, 

 despite our differences, 

and once we did, 

 something rare and beautiful was created. . 

For me, 

 love like that has happened only once

and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. .

 I’ll never forget a single moment of it. .

::: Our Journey :::

We're so much stronger than we think we are. 

 We got disappointed, 

we got hurt,

 and felt like we lost everything that ever meant something in our world.

But life goes on.

 The sun will always rise again. 

Some people come and go,

 some are meant to stay for a life time.
We got to have faith.

 It'll all get better in time, 

the pain will fade,

 and we'll love, live, laugh again. 

I promise you. 

 But until then, it's up to you. .

You can either focus on what's tearing you apart, 

or on what's holding you together. .

H O W ???

Sometimes I think of everything that has happened so far.

I start to wonder why I am here and not there. 

I wonder why I've been at this place, 

at this time, 

with the person I was and met you. 

How I thought we were meant to be. 

How you told me you'd be different, 

how you told me I gave you hope when you thought you lost it all, 

how you told me you loved me. 

I remember how I believed in every word you said, 

how I dreamt about our future, 

how I promised you to always be around, 

how much I loved you. 

And I meant it. 

I still do. 

And I will never forget, 

that's for sure. 

But seems like you forgot it all. 

You told me to move on, 

everyone's telling me that.

And I want to, 

I REALLY DO !

But, 

please tell me, 

how do you move on ?

how do you forget someone who gave you so much to remember?

:: C A P i T A L ::

A – Accept

Accept others for who they are and for the choices they’ve made even if you have difficulty in understanding their beliefs, motives or actions.

B – Break Away

Break away from everything that stands in the way of what you hope to accomplish in your life.

C – Create

Create a family of friends with whom you can share your hopes, dreams, sorrows and happiness.

D – Decide

Decide that you’ll be successful and happy come what may and good things will find you. The roadblocks are only minor obstacles along the way.

E – Explore

Explore and experiment. The world has much to offer and you have much to give. And every time you try something new, you’ll learn more about yourself.

F – Forgive

Forgive and forget. Grudges only weigh you down and inspire unhappiness and grief. Soar above it and remember that everyone makes mistakes.

G – Grow

Leave the childhood monsters behind. They can no longer hurt you or stand in your way.

H – Hope

Hope for the best and never forget that anything is possible as long as you remain dedicated to the task.

I – Ignore

Ignore the negative voice inside your head. Focus instead on your goals and remember your accomplishments. Your past success is only a small inkling of what the future holds for you.

J – Journey

Journey to new worlds, new possibilities by remaining open-minded. Try to learn something new every day and you’ll grow.

K – Know

Know that no matter how bad things seem, they’ll always get better. The warmth of spring always follows the harshest winter.

L – Love

Let love fill your heart instead of hate. When hate is in your heart, there’s room for nothing else, but when love is in your heart, there’s room for endless happiness.

M – Manage

Manage your time and your expenses wisely and you’ll suffer less stress and worry. Then you’ll be able to focus on the important things in life.

N – Notice

Never ignore the poor, infirm, helpless, weak or thode who suffer. Offer your assistance when possible and always share your kindness and understanding.

O – Open

Open your eyes and take in all the beauty around you. Even during the worst of times there’s still much to be thankful for.

P – Play

Never forget to have fun along the way. Success means nothing without happiness.

Q – Question

Ask many questions because you’re here to learn.

R – Relax

Refuse to let worry and stress rule your life and remember that things always have a way of working out in the end.

S – Share

Share your talent, skills, knowledge and time with others. Everything that you invest in others will return to you many times over.

T – Try

Even when your dreams seem impossible to reach, try anyway. You’ll be amazed by what you can accomplish.

U – Use

Use your gifts to your best ability. Talent that’s wasted has no value. Talent that’s used will bring unexpected rewards.

V – Value

Value the friends and family members who have supported and encouraged you and be there for them as well.

W – Work

Work hard every day to be the best person you can be but never feel guilty if you fall short of your goals. Every sunrise offers a second chance.

X – X-Ray

Look deep inside the hearts of those around you and you’ll see the goodness and beauty within.

Y – Yield

Yield to commitment. If you stay on track and remain dedicated, you’ll find success at the end of the road.

Z – Zoom

Zoom to a happy place when bad memories or sorrow rears its ugly head. Let nothing interfere with your goals. Instead, focus on your abilities, your dreams and a brighter tomorrow.

This is Love

I think it’s amazing when you begin to find yourself loving someone for who they are. 

When you can meet a stranger and know nothing about them and suddenly find those little things about them that you can’t help but fall for. 

Though you still notice those physical attributes that caused you to be first attracted to them, 

you find out how their beauty within is far superior and it’s reason why you stay. 

It’s easy to say you fall in love with their personality, 

but it’s so much than that. 

It’s their subtle quirks that only belong to them, 

that you always notice and just fall in love with because it’s what makes them so unique. 

How the most random things they do can make you smile instantaneously. 

And the smallest things that we take for granted such as a smile, 

a laugh, or how they act in certain situation becomes something you look forward to seeing and hearing everyday. 

And it’s incredible how both you are able to break down these barriers and shields the other has put up so easily, 

and yet feel so comfortable being so vulnerable with another person. 

In the end, you fall for everything about someone. 

You fall in love with the hidden scars they have that made them who they are. 

You fall in love with their tendencies that you’re almost certain they don’t even know they have. 

You fall in love with their heart. 

You fall in love with who they are. .

i WiLL ALWAYS LOVE U

I will not always be the definition of a

 "PERFECT GiRLFRiEND."

Some days I will mess up. 

I'll get jealous. 

I’ll probably never listen to you, 

and I’ll never do anything right. 

Absentmindedly maybe I’ll even bring up buried fears and doubts. 

And sometimes I may even break your heart a little bit.

But I will also always be your shoulder to lean on. 

I will support you and be honest with you.  

I'll talk to you about my own fears and worries, 

I will let you in to my heart and my mind. 

I will let you be mean when you are upset. 

I will listen when you need someone to listen, 

and push you when you need to be pushed. 

I will never be perfect, 

but I will always try to be what you need. 

I’ll be the best me that I can offer to you because that’s what you deserve. 

I’ll be there for you and be by your side through everything, 

I won’t give up even when things get tough. 

i ♥ u !

LOVE is BLiND

You're blinded by LOVE

when you can't differentiate

gender, age, race, nationality, religion, culture and language. .

Sometimes, 

you're so blind, 

you can't see the bad in that person, 

no matter how much that person had hurt you 

or broke your heart for countless times, 

you'll still forgive them in the end. .

In fact, 

you can only see the good in that person and trust them completely, 

like a FOOL. 

So you would follow your heart 

and choose to stay even when things get hard on you, 

because you believe in happing endings. 

You won't listen to what others were telling you, 

you're very determined to prove them wrong 

because you had hope for the future. 

They say love is blind,  

but actually love is not blind

                               it sees but it never mind. .

::: J o D o H :::

Jika kamu memancing ikan
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail
Hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia semula kedalam air begitu sahaja
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kail kamu dan mungkin ia akan menderita MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup. .
 

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang
Setelah dia mulai MENYAYANGI kamu
Hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya
Janganlah sesekali kamu terus MENINGGALKANNYA begitu sahaja
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu
Dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia masih mengingati kamu. .

Jika kamu MENADAH air, biarlah berpada
Jangan terlalu berharap pada takungannya dan menganggap ia begitu teguh
Cukuplah sekadar untuk KEPERLUANMU sahaja
Kerana apabila ia mulai RETAK
Tidak sukar untuk kamu menampal dan memperbaikinya semula
Dan bukannya terus dibuang begitu sahaja. .

Begitulah juga jika kamu sedang memiliki seseorang

TERIMALAH dia seadanya
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan mengganggapkan dia begitu istimewa
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa
Kerana apabila dia melakukan KESILAPAN, 

tidaklah sukar untuk kamu MEMAAFKANNYA dan MEMBOLEHKAN hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhir hayat
Dan bukannya MENGHUKUMNYA dan MENINGGALKAN dia begitu sahaja kerana kamu merasa terlalu kecewa dengan sikapnya
Lalu semuanya akan menjadi TERHENTI begitu sahaja . .
 

Jika kamu MEMILIKI sepinggan nasi
Yang kamu pasti baik untuk diri kamu
Yang MENGENYANGKAN dan BERKHASIAT
Mengapa kamu berlengah lagi?
Cuba mencari makanan yang lain?
Kerana terlalu ingin mengejar KELAZATAN
Kelak, nasi itu akan BASI dan kamu sudah tidak boleh menikmatinya lagi
Kamu akan MENYESAL. .
 

Begitulah juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang INSAN
Yang kamu pasti boleh membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu
MENYAYANGIMU . . 

MENGASIHIMU . . 

dan MENCINTAIMU . .
Mengapa kamu berlengah lagi? 

Dengan cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain?
Terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN?
Kelak, dia akan BERJAUH HATI 

dan kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain
Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL dan tidak ada gunanya lagi
Oleh itu janganlah kita terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN
Kerana ia bukanlah faktor utama KEBAHAGIAAN yang sempurna,
Sedangkan jika kita boleh memaafkan KESILAPAN orang yang kita sayang
Dan akur dengan KELEMAHANNYA sebagai manusia biasa serta BERSYUKUR dengan apa yang kita sudah MILIKI
Kita akan BAHAGIA, BAHAGIA dan terus BAHAGIA . .

itu lebih BERMAKNA !

WHAT WOMEN WANT

A girl's needs are so simple. .

She just needs you to pay attention, 

because that attention reassures her you're still interested. 

She needs you to put in some effort, 

because that effort reassures her she ain't the only one who's trying. 

She needs you to make time for her, 

because that time reassures her you still want her to be a part of your life. 

She needs your loyalty, 

because that loyalty reassures her she's committing to the right person. 

Lastly, 

she needs your honesty, 

because your honesty reassures her she can trust you. 

and it's sad how some guys can't even get that done. . .

:: That Feeling ::

In life we encounter obstacles, 

something will always be coming our way. 

While we have our brief moments of happiness and laughter, 

there will always be sadness and sorrow. 

At times we don’t feel like doing anything at all. 

We get distracted and put a pause on our mission. 

Through this adventure, 

through this journey, 

we meet people that make us happy, 

and brightens our day. 

Knowing that these moments won’t last long, 

we make the best of it. 

Overcoming an obstacle, 

We feel confused and don’t know what to do. 

But God always has a plan for us 

even when it doesn’t make sense 

and we don’t understand ourselves. 

That moment when you feel everything is slipping away, 

you will always find yourself a reason to continue. 

In the end, 

everything will be alright, 

because if it’s not, 

it’s not the end. 

Tomorrow is a new day. .

Don't need your regret

You've noticed a changed huh? She never calls you anymore. She hardly texts you; when she does text you she doesn't say sweet things like she used to. She takes her time to reply. When you start an argument you can tell she doesn't really give a fuck. She makes you feel pathetic. Other guys are starting to text her and she replies to them. You realize she's starting to move on; talking to other guys; going on dates. And now you're starting to realize how beautiful she is. She's amazing isn't she? Well too fucking bad cause you lost her. You were once her world; her everything. She really wanted you but you pushed her aside. you failed to realize she wasn't afraid to walk away. She was strong enough to let go. And now you suddenly love her? Do you even know how much pain you caused her? A fucking ton. She didn't come around with your "I miss you" bullshit. She's gone. She's simply over you. . .

Her eyes don't light up when she hears your name anymore. She doesn't get chills when you walk by and her heart doesn't race when you smile at her. You don't get to her like you used to. You're just a bad memory in the back of her mind. So don't be suprised next time you make your way past her and she doesn't even glance your way. And don't bother trying to talk to her, you wont get a response. She's over fighting the same losing battle. The saddest part is that you have no one to blame but yourself. She gave you ever chance you could ask for. And you fucked up every time. Now she walks around with nothing but smile on her face, and she laughs louder then ever before. Looks like you've lost her bro . . .

::::: U S :::::

We fight all the time, 

the arguments we had are too much to handle. 

I hate your guts and you hate my attitude. 

We're both too stubborn and hot-tempered to step down and just apologize. 

I wouldn't give in no matter what. 

Those were the hard times. 

But if we put aside those ugly moments, 

it's just you and me. 

You, who is my pillar of support that always stand by me. 

And me, who is your everything, your one and only. 

Knowing that, we'd say 'I love you' even after all the hurt and pain we go through, 

because by the end of the day, 

thats what its all about. 

So don't mind the small arguments, 

and don't let the big fights jeopardize your relationship. 

Cherish the people that you argue a lot with, 

'cause you just might miss those bickering days when you least expect it.

SiCK of CRYiN

That sharp pain in your chest that comes when you walk pass someone you thought you knew. 

After all the things you guys went through together, 

it’s gone just like that. 

You trusted and loved them. 

After all the venting, crying, laughing, texting, 

good & bad times you guys shared, 

it ended up with all the other things you had. 

You can’t bear to see them with someone else after your relationship has ended. 

Even though you are no longer together, 

because you cared, because you loved, 

you know that it will crush you to see them smiling with someone else. 

To walk by someone that was once a huge part of your life can feel like you’ve reached your limits.

You feel brought down or even half dead for the rest of the day, 

but know that you gotta have your head held high. 

You don’t want them to see how much pain you are in on the inside because that shows them that you need them. 

And honestly, you don’t. 

You are your own person and you can be independent if you choose to. 

Show them that you’ll be fine. 

If he's the right guy, he won't leave. 

So don’t sink down to the bottom because you’re strong. 

You’ll get through this, 

it just takes time. . .

:: WAHAi DiRi ::

Wahai diri . . . 

Jika memang kau mencintainya kerana Allah, Cintailah dia dengan cara yang benar. .Cintailah dia pada saat yang tepat. .

Ya Robbii . . .

Aku tak akan memaksakan diri hanya untuk sebuah perasaan, Jika dia memang jiwa yang telah Kau pilihkan untukku, berikanlah kami jalan dan petunjuk. .Jika dia memang takdir bagiku, pantaskanlah dia untukku dan pantaskanlah diriku untuknya. 

Ya Robbii . . .

Aku memilihnya kerana sebuah keyakinan. . Aku terima seluruh kelebihan dan kekurangannya. . Aku terima seluruh luka dan bahagia yang menyertai hidupnya. . Aku terima dirinya dengan seluruh apa yang telah Engkau berikan untuknya. . 

 Ya Robbii . . .

Jika ada dua pilihan dan diantaranya adalah dia, tentu aku akan memilihnya. Jika ada sepuluh pilihan dan diantaranya adalah dia, tentu aku akan memilihnya. Jika ada seratus pilihan dan diantaranya adalah dia, tentu aku akan memilihnya. Dan jika hanya ada satu pilihan, dan tidak ada dia dalam pilihan itu. . Maka aku pun akan menerimanya sebagai pemberian terbaik dari Mu. . Aku tidak akan memaksakan diriku untuk memilihnya. . Kerana Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui. . Kerana Engkaulah yang Menciptakanku. . Kerana Engkaulah yang Memelihara diriku. . 

Ya Robbii . . .

Jika dengan menutup cinta ini yang menjadikan Mu Redha kepadaku. . Jika dengan mengorbankan perasaan ini Engkau menyelamatkanku. . Di saat manusia tergelincir dari jalan Mu. . Maka aku serahkan cinta ini untuk Mu. . Sebagai wujud bakti ku pada Mu .. Sebagai wujud syukurku pad Mu. .
  

Ya Muqollibal Qulub, Tsabbit Qolbi ‘ala Diinika . . 

Aku yakin bahwa tidak ada Ketetapan Mu yang salah. . Aku yakin bahwa semua Kehendak Mu sangat terukur. . Buatlah aku mencintai pilihan yang Kau berikan. . Buatlah aku setia pada pilihan yang Kau berikan. . Buatlah aku menyayangi pada pilihan yang Kau amanahkan. . 

Ya Robbii . . . 

Dengan segala Kekuasaan Mu. . Dengan segala Kekuatan Mu. . Dengan segala Keagungan Mu. . Hamba mohon pada Mu, Kuatkanlah hati ini saat ketetapan Mu membuat hati ini terasa sempit. . Tenangkanlah hati ini saat ketetapan Mu membuat hati ini terasa berat. . Sesungguhnya hanya dengan Pertolongan Mu, diri ini bisa menjalani semua ketentuan Mu. .

Ya Robbii . . .

 buatlah diriku mencintai Mu lebih dari segala makhluk yang telah Engkau Ciptakan. . buatlah diriku mencintai Rosulullah, kerana Engkau pun mencintainya(Rosulullah). Inilah isi hatiku, inilah harapanku, inilah keyakinanku. . Aku tidak hanya mencintaimu. . Tapi aku ingin mencintaimu kerana Allah. . Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan cara yang benar. . Aku ingin Allah Redha dengan cinta ini. .  

Tak usah khuatir jika engkau adalah Qudrah dan Irodah Nya. .

 Kerana semuanya pasti akan terwujud, hanya waktu yang akan menjadi saksi kekuasaan Nya. . Tak usah memaksakan jika kau memang bukan untuk diriku. . Kerana pasti aku bukan yang TERBAIK untukmu. . Sehebat apapun cinta ini. . Tidak akan pernah bisa menyelamatkan kita, Saat matahari hanya satu hasta di atas ubun2 kita. .

Kerana yang terbaik adalah . . .

Kita menjaga perasaan dan keyakinan ini dengan sebersih-bersih ketauhidan. .Kita diwafatkan bersama hamba hamba yang berbakti. .Hamba-hamba yang mengorbankan sesuatu yang paling dicintainya untuk Tuhannya. . Semoga Allah mempertemukan kita kembali disatu tempat, Dimana para abid melihat Robbiinya dengan penuh keredhaan dan kebahagiaan. . Kulakukan semua ini kerana 

"aku mencintaimu kerana Allah. ." 

Aamiin . . .

i'm still loving u

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through
Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete

But now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you

I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

DAY & NiGHT

I love u even it breaks my heart

Through ur eyes are on someone else

Like a puppet , like a sad doll

I would always be waiting for u

Just as day and night come

Love comes to me

In this dream, the end of a lonely day

I see u, I meet u

It flies far away, Driven away by the wind

I just cant catch this love, and its sad

It breaks my heart and disappears into bubles

In a deathly agony, Im so lonely

A sad flower with the thorns of a rose

In my broken heart

Im alone even when i cry

Even when im hurt

I long for love, and its breaks my heart

When the winds blows

Im missing u again

When it rains my tears rains too

I feel lonely even if im staring at u

Im afraid even if ure by my side

U might come and soon disappear

Like the sun at day

And the star at nigth

Ure by someone else's side

And i miss u so much tonight

The time we have loved together

24hours of day and night

Is not enough for me

Tonight i miss u as much i love u

Im lost, im wondering now

Cast ur light on me

And lead my way

Im tormented without u

Im lonely without u

::: L i F E :::

You cannot stay in a bubble for fear of being hurt. 

Hurt is part of life. 

Everytime you do get hurt it will make you so much stronger. 

If you never get hurt you would only be setting yourself up.

you would not be able to handle a break up

if you never experienced the feeling of be hurt. 

Love is like learning to walk, 

or life itself. 

There are stumbles and falls, 

but every love is a new joy. 

The bruises aren't fatal unless we allow them to be. 

With luck and reflection we learn from them and do better next time. 

Fear only deprives us of the joy of life. 

So embrace life, 

and love which is the best of it. 

Adventure is never a consistently comfortable experience. 

That's life. ♥

:::: L D R ::::

LONG DiSTANCE RELATiONSHiP

"Silent Treatment"

When you’re in a long distance relationship, using the ‘silent treatment’ is probably one of the worst ways to fix a problem and/or teach your significant other a lesson. Because while you sit there, giving them the cold shoulder, they aren’t just forced to reflect what had happened (if they are even aware of it), they agonize and torture themselves over it.

They’re left alone to fend off the miserable thoughts that come in this silence. They wonder what they have done, what they could do, if you’re leaving them, if you’ve finally grown sick of them, if you’re ever coming back, etc…


They call out for you, begging and pleading, wanting to work things out—needing you to reassure them that everything will be okay, that you two can and will work things out. But, you purposefully ignore them.

Why?

What do you gain in intentionally ignoring them when all they want is to make things work? Does it make you feel better knowing that they’re hurting? Do you honestly believe the cutting all connection is going to fix the problem? Is it supposed to make them understand what they did wrong? Or maybe a way to punish them so that you condition them to never do it again?

I just don’t understand. Maybe there’s something I failed to realize or might have missed. But silence rarely solves problems, in this case, it’s seen more as a punishment.

If you want them to understand why you are upset, don’t leave them on their own to try and figure it out, just tell them. If you’re angry and need time to cool off, let them know that, instead of disappearing for hours on ends.

It’s already hard as is being away from the one you love, and to take away the one thing you two have to keep each other such as communication? It’s beyond frightening and painful.

We have to exercise what those of us in a long distance relationship have and treasure most: communication.

So instead of keeping silent, talk. More problems are solved that way. I promise.