::: H E A R T B R E A K :::

Everyone at some point in their life is going to experience it. 

And, u know what ? 

it's probably one of the most painful things a person has to go through. 

I'm not going to lie ! 

When u get ur heart broken, 

it feels like it shattered into a million pieces. 

It's like that person u were head over heels for stomped mercilessly on ur heart. 

It feels like ur heart is being shredded to pieces, 

cut up, 

and thrown in the trash, 

left to rot. 

It hurts a lot, 

emotionally and physically. 

Getting heart broken actually makes ur heart physically hurt. 

U cry and cry and wish it wasn't like this. 

U wish it was just a temporary nightmare.

But, the sad truth ? 

It's not ! 

It's reality ! 

And u're going to just have to accept it, the pain and all. .

The truth is. . .

I tell myself the things that I really need to hear at a time like this. .

"You're gone because it's the best for both of us. You weren't happy, and now you've gone to find someone that can make you happy. Which is good, because that's what I want. you need to be happy and it makes me happy knowing you are happy. I tell myself we weren't right for each other and there's one right person out there for me, and it wasn't you, so that's why we didn't last. I tell myself that I won't look back on our relationship with regret, because I believe in the saying that it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all."

But I'm just lying to myself.

No one will ever love you the same way I did. Being apart isn't good for either of us. You used to be happy, and I believe we could go back to the time we were happy, if we could just work through it. I believe with all my heart we were right for each other... and I will always live with that regret allowing you to walk out of my life instead of just giving up after countless times of you throwing me back to the ground after I dropped my pride time after time. I wish I could say that I never did love you because it would be easier. then I wouldn't have to deal with crushing heartache. I wish I could truly believe that saying either way; I don't believe it was better to have loved and lost, but the time I spent loving you was the greatest time of my life.

I don't know if telling myself these lies are helping or not. It's not working to force myself to believe it, because with every statement I tell myself, the pain worsens to know it's not true and yet I continue to go in this continuous cycle, happy to stay in it because the only thing I can think of is that you loved me enough to pull me out of it. This is the only lie I have told myself that I have chosen to believe. I think that's why it hurts the most. .

Although I tell myself many lies to try to get over you, here's the truth:

"I will always love you and that's all I'm really certain of anymore."

iF onLy u know . . . .

I didn’t plan on FALLiNG iN LOVE with you, 

 and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. .

But once we met, 

 it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. .

We fell in love, 

 despite our differences, 

and once we did, 

 something rare and beautiful was created. . 

For me, 

 love like that has happened only once

and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. .

 I’ll never forget a single moment of it. .

::: Our Journey :::

We're so much stronger than we think we are. 

 We got disappointed, 

we got hurt,

 and felt like we lost everything that ever meant something in our world.

But life goes on.

 The sun will always rise again. 

Some people come and go,

 some are meant to stay for a life time.
We got to have faith.

 It'll all get better in time, 

the pain will fade,

 and we'll love, live, laugh again. 

I promise you. 

 But until then, it's up to you. .

You can either focus on what's tearing you apart, 

or on what's holding you together. .

H O W ???

Sometimes I think of everything that has happened so far.

I start to wonder why I am here and not there. 

I wonder why I've been at this place, 

at this time, 

with the person I was and met you. 

How I thought we were meant to be. 

How you told me you'd be different, 

how you told me I gave you hope when you thought you lost it all, 

how you told me you loved me. 

I remember how I believed in every word you said, 

how I dreamt about our future, 

how I promised you to always be around, 

how much I loved you. 

And I meant it. 

I still do. 

And I will never forget, 

that's for sure. 

But seems like you forgot it all. 

You told me to move on, 

everyone's telling me that.

And I want to, 

I REALLY DO !

But, 

please tell me, 

how do you move on ?

how do you forget someone who gave you so much to remember?

:: C A P i T A L ::

A – Accept

Accept others for who they are and for the choices they’ve made even if you have difficulty in understanding their beliefs, motives or actions.

B – Break Away

Break away from everything that stands in the way of what you hope to accomplish in your life.

C – Create

Create a family of friends with whom you can share your hopes, dreams, sorrows and happiness.

D – Decide

Decide that you’ll be successful and happy come what may and good things will find you. The roadblocks are only minor obstacles along the way.

E – Explore

Explore and experiment. The world has much to offer and you have much to give. And every time you try something new, you’ll learn more about yourself.

F – Forgive

Forgive and forget. Grudges only weigh you down and inspire unhappiness and grief. Soar above it and remember that everyone makes mistakes.

G – Grow

Leave the childhood monsters behind. They can no longer hurt you or stand in your way.

H – Hope

Hope for the best and never forget that anything is possible as long as you remain dedicated to the task.

I – Ignore

Ignore the negative voice inside your head. Focus instead on your goals and remember your accomplishments. Your past success is only a small inkling of what the future holds for you.

J – Journey

Journey to new worlds, new possibilities by remaining open-minded. Try to learn something new every day and you’ll grow.

K – Know

Know that no matter how bad things seem, they’ll always get better. The warmth of spring always follows the harshest winter.

L – Love

Let love fill your heart instead of hate. When hate is in your heart, there’s room for nothing else, but when love is in your heart, there’s room for endless happiness.

M – Manage

Manage your time and your expenses wisely and you’ll suffer less stress and worry. Then you’ll be able to focus on the important things in life.

N – Notice

Never ignore the poor, infirm, helpless, weak or thode who suffer. Offer your assistance when possible and always share your kindness and understanding.

O – Open

Open your eyes and take in all the beauty around you. Even during the worst of times there’s still much to be thankful for.

P – Play

Never forget to have fun along the way. Success means nothing without happiness.

Q – Question

Ask many questions because you’re here to learn.

R – Relax

Refuse to let worry and stress rule your life and remember that things always have a way of working out in the end.

S – Share

Share your talent, skills, knowledge and time with others. Everything that you invest in others will return to you many times over.

T – Try

Even when your dreams seem impossible to reach, try anyway. You’ll be amazed by what you can accomplish.

U – Use

Use your gifts to your best ability. Talent that’s wasted has no value. Talent that’s used will bring unexpected rewards.

V – Value

Value the friends and family members who have supported and encouraged you and be there for them as well.

W – Work

Work hard every day to be the best person you can be but never feel guilty if you fall short of your goals. Every sunrise offers a second chance.

X – X-Ray

Look deep inside the hearts of those around you and you’ll see the goodness and beauty within.

Y – Yield

Yield to commitment. If you stay on track and remain dedicated, you’ll find success at the end of the road.

Z – Zoom

Zoom to a happy place when bad memories or sorrow rears its ugly head. Let nothing interfere with your goals. Instead, focus on your abilities, your dreams and a brighter tomorrow.

This is Love

I think it’s amazing when you begin to find yourself loving someone for who they are. 

When you can meet a stranger and know nothing about them and suddenly find those little things about them that you can’t help but fall for. 

Though you still notice those physical attributes that caused you to be first attracted to them, 

you find out how their beauty within is far superior and it’s reason why you stay. 

It’s easy to say you fall in love with their personality, 

but it’s so much than that. 

It’s their subtle quirks that only belong to them, 

that you always notice and just fall in love with because it’s what makes them so unique. 

How the most random things they do can make you smile instantaneously. 

And the smallest things that we take for granted such as a smile, 

a laugh, or how they act in certain situation becomes something you look forward to seeing and hearing everyday. 

And it’s incredible how both you are able to break down these barriers and shields the other has put up so easily, 

and yet feel so comfortable being so vulnerable with another person. 

In the end, you fall for everything about someone. 

You fall in love with the hidden scars they have that made them who they are. 

You fall in love with their tendencies that you’re almost certain they don’t even know they have. 

You fall in love with their heart. 

You fall in love with who they are. .