I'd rather not to be with u !

I'd rather be single than waste my time on somebody who's not gonna take me seriously. 

I'd rather watch other couples be happy than be in a relationship where i'm gonna be miserable. 

I'd rather feel lonely than feel alone when i'm with somebody. 

I'd rather wait until someone comes along and genuinely wants to be with me, than rush into something with someone who just wanna play games with me. 

Fuck all that nonsense, 

too many people just wanna 'have fun' nowadays, 

which is fine cause at our age. 

I don't blame u, it's normal. 

But don't do it at my expense and hurt me while u're at it !

Those people, who hate you, normally envy your freedom.
Since we don’t live in a perfect world it makes a lot of sense that not everyone will love you. In such a world you will make enemies just as you make friends and there will be people who hate you as much as their will be people who love you. Not everyone subjected to the same situations ends up hating others; These people hate you because of their own weaknesses and I would do nothing but pity them.

::: An Angel :::

One day u meet someone and for some inexplicable reason, u feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else. Closer to them than your closest family. 

Perhaps because this person carries an angel within them. .

One sent to u for some higher purpose, to teach u an important lesson or to keep u safe during a perilous time. 

What u must do is trust in them. Even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering. .

The reason for their presence will become clear in due time.

Though here is a word of warning. .

U may grow to love this person but remember they are not yours to keep. Their purpose isn't to save u but to show u how to save yourself. .

And once this is fulfilled, the halo lifts and the angel leaves their body as the person exits your life. .

They will be a stranger to u once more. .

I miss You

Hey ! I know we haven't seen each other, or even talked, in a long time. .but i've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and i want u to know that I miss u !Not like "i regret what happened" or even "i want to see u again". Just,"I miss u".  Full stop ! It's strange to think that someone i used to know so well is now a total stranger. That i sometimes go entire days without thinking of u even a little.Most of the time. I let myself forget, because it's easier. But then i find something. .An old message and ur picture still save in my phone.And the full weight of what's been lost comes crashing down on me.But this isn't regret. We have reason for ending it, and they're as valid as ever. But back at the start, we didn't need reason for anything. It all just happen. We didn't have common interest, or similar goals. We didn't even really get along that well.But we didn't need a reason to fall in love. We just did.The reasons came at the end, and everything that's happened since has been all about reasons.And that's good. It means  one day i might find someone i won't have to say goodbye too.But a small part of me hopes that u still remember what it was like before all the reasons.. . .and that u miss me too  . . .

:: Between US ::

L O V E
At first, I never really thought about love. All I wanted was a boyfriend, or a relationship. 
As I got older, I came to realize what love really is. 
When I’m with all these other guys I never felt as if I can love them. 
One or two boys I thought I loved. 
More as if I was in love with their words when they spoke to me saying sweet things. 
The realization came to me and they weren’t the right people for me. 

Once I met HIM, again I wasn’t thinking too much about love.
I knew I liked this boy, but not love. 
I didn’t know if this relationship would even last between us. 
But, it wasn’t just the words he spoke to me. 
It was the laughs we shared, tears and bittersweet things we've been through, the memories, and smiles that made me fall in love with him. 

I never really got that warm fuzzy feeling in my heart before i meet him, and I knew that I loved him, and he loved me. That's all. 

W H Y ??

You hide behind your feelings

and keep the truth locked away,

but there is so much said

in the things you don’t say

You innocently, tell me

our time has come and gone

and that we can’t go back

but I don’t believe it

and this time you’re wrong

The distance you put between us

is nothing more than time lost

a place for your feelings to hide,

yet I can hear the love in your voice

each time we talk

My patience has no end

when it comes to loving you

and I will wait a lifetime

for you to see the truth

Real love doesn’t go away

it doesn’t fade into the past,

it goes on forever

and always finds its way back

I will wait a lifetime for you

because you are my soul,

and behind all of your doubt

I know you can’t let go

You are my soul,

and I am yours, too.

If two people were ever meant to be,

it’s me and you. .

These Butterflies

I still remember the first time you looked at me. I was confused and I had never expected that we’d become this close.You gave me these butterflies when you smiled. I couldn’t help but to smile back.It was a smile that was rarely on my face. It was only because of you.You called me beautiful, held my hand and locked our fingers together.You gave me these butterflies when you looked at me. I couldn’t help but to blush and look down.This feeling of happiness mixed with confusion as my insecurities go crumbling down.It only happens when I’m with you.Every time you say “I love you”, these butterflies that you give me become wild.You’re the reason I can feel this. It’s a beautiful sensation.It’s all just with you. ♥